Far too often I know I'm inadequate.
I just sit in bed and think. Once I start I know it'll be hours before i can fall asleep.
Because next comes the constant questions like is this even worth it? I just repeat the same mistakes you'd think I'd learn from.
Then I start second-guessing every decision I ever made. Instantly creating different realities of how things could have been if I didn't break her heart. Or move to the city a little sooner and a thousand other things.
Sometimes it seems like there's a light at the end of the tunnel but it never gets any closer.
It's my fault. Shaking and trembling when I am around because I've let you down. I did what I had now I haven't got you.
So then after hours of mental self abuse I realize I don't even recognize my life anymore. Most of the time I want to give up. Just as I'm finally about to fall asleep,I see that I don't mean anything to anyone.
Once I'm gone it's likely that no one will care,in fact some of them will probably be relieved.
I know we all feel this way sometimes but it's a hard feeling to shake. As I close my eyes I know only one thing is for sure,I fucking hate myself.
We had our hopes. When we both know,I just don't show a kind of emotion you look for.
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